Persevere.

Dark.

It’s all strangely grey
This odd state I’m in
Like a wavy orange haze
Why is that ok?

Too complacent in my opinion
Why is it all so peaceful?
An eerie-it’ll all be fine
No real sense of dominion

Some signal, some test
But nothing, just scattered
Stumbling and plunging
To the next thing, still I protest

Good things pour in
But somehow never fill
The grass is always greener
And you may never win

(but maybe that’s a good thing)

~RLR

I will not allow the devil to "gain a foothold".
I WILL persevere through this almost crippling uncertainty.
Have you not yet realized that I am very dramatic?

"For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith GOODNESS(you know when you get around someone with this goodness-hard to explain); and to goodness, KNOWLEDGE(read some good books-the Bible mainly); and to knowledge, SELF-CONTROL(I shall not get started on this one); and to self-control, PERSEVERANCE(press on!); and to perseverance, GODLINESS (or God-likeness); and to godliness brotherly KINDNESS(just be nice to people-for heavens' sake-literally); and to brotherly kindness, LOVE(nothing else matters except this). For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins."

~2 Peter 1:5-9

Thanks Dave.