Aimless.

Here I am.
Once again. With.
The heart pounding JOY of anticipation.
For what?
I don’t rightly (or wrongly) know. And.
A vast amount of options. Or. Possibilities.
Are all around me. Like.
Sweet vapors that I so badly want.
To inhale.
Or do I?
Like standing in a deep pool. And trying.
With all my might to RUN.
Like how a puppy acts when it is FIRST.
Placed on a leash. Writhing. Stubborn.
With paws firmly planted.
Oh if you would just walk with Me!
How hard you make this child.
It’s only for your protection.
This restraint.
And how attractive it can be.
These awful sobbing meltdowns.
Are at their closings.
Consistently paired with PEACE.
Terrifying. How much I love. You.
Terrifying is.
A part of Who You Are.
My heart is steadfast.
Oh God.
My heart is steadfast.

~RlR