Confused.

Let’s start this blog off with a BANG!

Joyce Meyer believes that the mind is a battlefield, I concur. Let me elaborate: there are areas in my life, that when pondered, cause my brain to feel muddled. I also know that God is not the author of confusion, so like a good Christian, I politely asked God “what the deal is” regarding these areas. I begged. I pleaded. I even waited (a great concept). And…I got nothing. This prompted me to implore alternative methods of figuring out God’s “answer”. As a Christian I usually only have 5 clear routes (not in order of importance):
1.) The classic, “what would Jesus do?,” how would He handle this situation?
2.) Extensive Biblical/Christian literature “research” (and yes the whole closing your eyes and flipping open your Bible to point to THE verse that will speak to you counts) :o)
3.) Praying and waiting and trying to do nothing and trying to just forget about it and…..never mind.
4.) Seeking “wise” counsel from fellow Christian friends or even scarier…
5.) Doing my own thing.
There are other methods but I didn’t think screaming and crying and throwing a hissy fit deserved a category, so… after dabbling a little in each of these profound methods, I chose route #2 (although it really wasn’t very extensive). The “answer” actually came pretty quickly (a rare occurrence); I referenced a scripture I had come across in one of my favorite books by Joyce called “The Secret Power of Speaking God’s Word” (go buy it, ASAP!):

“I cast the whole of my care [all of my anxieties, all my worries, all my concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for me affectionately and cares about me watchfully.”~1 Peter 5:7

Simple as that, when you don’t know the answer-cast it ALL on Him-trust me He can handle it. For me it’s just hard transferring it from my head, to my life. Giving it ALL to God and asking forgiveness and forgetting the mistakes and the sin- the forgetting part gets me every time. But I have experienced true healing and TRUST me-this takes time, lots of time and prayer. We all go through life and encounter all kinds of very different experiences-it’s what makes us individuals, it’s what God uses to shape our character and help others, even the mistakes we make and the sin we fall into are used by God (hopefully we learn from these experiences and move on!). I think the key to living is learning (from God of course) and struggling and becoming stronger and struggling some more and becoming even stronger and living each day as a day that is fresh and beautiful and God given. It’s letting go of your past, but never forgetting it completely-relying on it at times to remember that, as Joyce says, “you’re not where you want to be, but thank God you’re not where you used to be!”-love it. She rocks my world-literally.

I don’t know-I just want to say that I am ALL in-it’s just the beginning for me-I don’t know where else I can go except up, I’ve given my life to God-I will give it up for Him and in service to Him-the most important thing on earth to me is to share God’s Love and sweet salvation, this life is just a glimpse, just a “training ground” for what He has in store for us, man I’m excited. If God says jump, I say how high, if He says go, I say where to, when He says trust Me, I will.

Okay…so it wasn’t a BANG, but it was definitely a POP right? :o) Love you guys.

He died, He rose…give praise where praise is due-Happy Easter-Love You Jesus.
YOU are my everything.


"Because He lives,

I can face tomorrow,

Because He lives, all fear is gone;

Because I know He holds the future,

And life is worth the living,

Just because He lives!"


William J. Gaither© 1971
Mattew 28:6